Wednesday, January 24, 2007
dar failed his test. lil pple failed, n he failed...
hais. i noe i shuld console him, shuld tell him 'NVM', 'TRY AGAIN', 'DON SAD', 'ITS OK'
bud i'll b lying straight into his face if i said all these, n i dun wan 2 lie
if being 2gether requires me 2 lie, wad for? isit a relationshp suppose 2 b true & honest?
in fact, i feel veri DISAPPOINTED wif him. veri SAD. veri HURT.
tears flow wen i saw his msg. i tot he was playin wif me wen i 1st received his msg, bud consequently, i realised its all FACT & REALITY.
he knew his weekend would b burned if he failed, bud he still failed.
we din went would 2whole days 4 e last weekend juz 2 let him study at hm. we paid a price & still ...hais
i noe dar feel bad & sad abt it too. i noe he dun wan dis 2 happen too..
bud wad abt me? am i suppose 2 juz accept everythin?!!!
isit wen he can book out i'm supposed 2 b wif him, & wen he cant, i'm suppose 2 accept it????
I HATE!! HATE HATE HATE!!
alrd so lil time 2gether since u enlisted le, onli weekends cn spend 2gether le
nw lei? onli left less den a day 2gether.
i'm nt lookin 2wards weekends animore.
nuttin 2 look 4ward animore..
it'l juz b a few hrs 2gether n dats it. i'll b alone again. outside alone again.
i HATE all these feelings.
U said being choice-less inside sux. BUD i tell u, being outside waitin even sux.
u'll nv noe e suffering i'm enduring.
wen i'm in e workin society, workin & workin wifout time 4 u & u being e 1 waitin & waitin, mayb u will feel wad i'm feelin..
till den..
i dun wana hurt u wif my words, so i dun wan call or msg u
hope u understand my feelings n stand in my shoes
dats all i can do, 2 restraint myself frm hurtin u further.
ps: of course der still LOVES u as much, juz e pain i'm gg tru nw, u will nv understand.
everything comes to an end at 11:17 AM.
